So I went back to college yesterday, and it felt kind of pointless to be honest. Today was better in terms of actually feeling like maybe i've learnt something. But I've been feeling kind of weary and not really in a very talky mood. Or even a very listeny mood to be honest.
I hate this time of year, it's just so tiring and depressing and just plain cold. And this time last year was pretty bad for me and I'm kind of scared that all the progress I've been making is just slipping away. I'm withdrawing back into myself and I know I shouldn't but I can't help it.
It just sucks. It doesn't help that this is already the longest week ever and I know I have four more days of it before I can relax, because I start my job on Friday, so Sunday is my only day off, which I can see being really depressing. But I really need a job so I can afford to chase my dreams, which is seeming more unreachable than ever.
I guess I'm just feeling kind of down at the moment and am clinging to my smile for dear life.
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