So today I am having a day that is the complete polar opposite of yesterday, when I spent the entire day running around like a blue-arsed fly. Today I have done nothing but watch Alex Goot videos.
It's been the best day ever.
He's so talented. I could listen to him sing all day. And thus far have been doing exactly that.
I wish he would tour over here so I could go see him perform, because that would be great.
My dad is pissed at me. I realise I have done nothing helpful today. But the point of Josh having his mates over was that it was dad's idea, and he had to deal with them. And I know I should have offered help with something, but it's like I get no recognition for the things I do. For example, yesterday, I cleaned the entire house ready for Josh's sleepover, dad came home early and did he help? Nope. Did he thank me? That'd be a big fat nope too. So yeah, my bad for having a day off during half term. Sorry.
I've been talking about how I bottle up my feelings to Alex today. And I realised something. I don't just bottle up the normal emotions like anger, hostility etc. But I actually bottle up pretty much every emotion. I think I do this because if I didn't, and just went around being myself. People would be unbearable to be around. Which sounds absolutely ridiculous, because I'm not like a hermit or anything, I just haven't come across a lot of people who don't get on my nerves/could take my crazy. I dunno, maybe I'm just destined to be alone.
This got really depressing over the course of the 3 or so hours that I've been writing it.
Just know that it was really nice to have a day off, while it lasted. And that I love Alex Goot.
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